My abortion is not the end

  Nicole
Connecticut,  United States
 
  My name is Nicole Peck and I am a victim of the lies of abortion.  I was 15, afraid, ashamed and I felt like I had no choice - college and a career would be gone.  The abortion caused me emotional, physical and spiritual harm that I was never told could or would result.  
I was never given a pregnancy test, told about the procedure or told the real truth about abortion: risks such as death, breast cancer, endometriosis, and infertility.

There was no counseling or compassion from the staff.  No one was there to hold my hand. I remember most vividly the sucking sound of the machine and feeling like my insides would be ripped out.  Juice, cookies and antibiotics were given to me after the abortion. They took my money and my baby!  

Immediately after the abortion, I was relieved it was OVER or so I thought.  That’s the LIE!  It was NOT over! On the outside everything looked good but I had a huge hole in my heart.  I was distant and empty and contemplated suicide.  My relationship with the father ended after high school.  We never told our parents. I really didn’t have much of a relationship with God at that time. I was in denial for many years before I faced the reality of what I had done.

Abortion was supposed to help me and it didn’t. It created many years of pain, anguish, lies, failed relationships and heartache.  I could not forgive myself.  I was NEVER able to conceive a child after my abortion and I am 50 years old now.  The pain is still there.  Abortion scarred me!  

With God’s help, I found hope, healing, love and forgiveness. I finally forgave myself after 14 years. I named my child, Peter, and placed him with God, and I trust Peter is looking down with a smile today and I will see him in Heaven.

My abortion is not the end.  God blessed my husband and me with two adopted sons, John Paul, from Guatemala, on Mother’s Day 2007, and Nicholas Anthony in 2012.  God has a plan for each one of us – LIFE for the born and unborn!  I never want another woman to bear the scars, devastation, and pain of abortion as I have and that is why I will speak out against abortion and be Silent No More!

   
   
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