Liz's 2018 March for Life Testimony

Georgia,  United States

My name is Liz Youngs from Atlanta.  For many years, I carried with me the painful secret of abortion.  My first three children, two girls and a boy, were lost to abortion.  I knew abortion was wrong, but each time I found myself in a crisis pregnancy, I felt cornered.   I didn’t want to disappoint my family because I wasn’t married; I couldn’t count on the father.  I couldn’t afford a child on my own. No one would have to know.

Society says abortion will take care of the “problem” but no one told me that my life would never be the same.  Ever.   After my abortions, I felt relief, but that quickly turned into unbearable grief and sorrow.  I became angry and depressed.  I went into full self-destruct mode with alcohol, drugs, and a food addiction, yet no matter how much I tried to numb the pain, it was always gnawing away at me.  I was suffering in silence with my secret, afraid to tell anyone because I had so much guilt and remorse.  How could I have done such a thing to my children?  For many years, I pushed these memories deep down inside myself.

Trying to reassemble my life, I came back to the Catholic Church where I discovered the PATH ministry in Atlanta, which offers healing for those suffering from the negative effects of abortion.  I attended a Rachel’s Vineyard retreat and participated in a post-abortive Bible Study which was probably one of the hardest and most rewarding things I have ever done.   I found PATH to be a safe place to share my secrets with others who had been there too.  Through my healing journey, I experienced God’s love, grace, mercy and forgiveness and I was able to acknowledge and embrace my children and accept their love and forgiveness too. 

As the years go by, I have found my new normal as a mother of one child here on Earth and three children in Heaven.  I may have only one child to hold onto, but my other three children will always be in my heart.  It took an encounter with Christ to remind me that His mercy is bigger than my poor choices.  I will always regret my abortions, but my children, Cathryn, Rachel and Matthew existed and were lives that mattered and they will never be forgotten.

And this is why I am SILENT NO MORE! 

Priests for Life