I’ve had 5 abortions and 1 miscarriage. It’s not a joke and it is something not to be taken lightly. Three of my abortions were from a rapist (the same person) when I was 15 in 1967, and my babies were killed in an abortion mill in Mexico.
I got married, had 2 abortions, 1 miscarriage and that marriage bit the dust.
Zoom in on the 1980’s as I marry again and this time have 2 healthy baby boys, now grown men and the light of my light. The second marriage now ends in divorce. I say, with the rape and abortions and failed relationships, I lost the ability to live within the bounds of my own integrity. I came from a strong Catholic family and I no longer knew who I was. When my babies were killed because of my choice, I died hard with each of them and eventually cast myself out of God’s community and lived like a fool until 9/11. That day turned me around to face the truth about what was important. So I went to Mass, and went everyday, but didn’t go to confession. I was so scared that a priest might tell me to leave and not come back.
But I couldn’t live with myself any longer and went to my young priest Fr. Tom. He heard my grim confession of 40 years and afterwards said, “You know, Dee, that God loves you. You are his little girl and He’s been waiting all this time for you to return. Today is your day. And God so loves you. You better believe it and know it.”
Well -NO-I didn’t know because I hated myself and I don’t think I have ever allowed anyone to love me, especially God.
I may go to my grave with the unresolved trauma of rape, but not so with abortion.
Father Tom gave me a Project Rachel brochure which led to other groups like Silent No More and Rachel’s Vineyard and Centro Tepeyac. He and many others helped me to see again and feel again and to join the human race again.
The avenues of healing are all around.
Those of us who are deeply wounded need a Father Tom to help us truly believe in God’s love and mercy and forgiveness and to take responsibility and action for healing.
The beat goes on and everyday is a challenge and being Silent No More is good not only for you and me; it is a powerful way to help the other side hear the truth about the evil of abortion.
