I had an abortion because I felt alone and scared. I didn't want a burden in my life I didn’t think about the life in my womb but at the same time I wanted to keep my baby!! I had a little bump already; I now know it was God telling me "Don't do it!!"
That night after the abortion I dreamed a lot of blood. I remember I felt numb all that time before the abortion, during and after. I wanted the father of my child to tell me "We don't have to do that, I'll help you". But he didn't. I wanted to hear my two sisters or at least one of them to say "you don't have to do it, we'll help you". But they didn't. I wish I could go back in time and have my baby boy. I know God forgives me, but how do I forgive myself?