I had an abortion because I was only four months post-partum with my first child. It was a medical abortion, not surgical. I was mentally and physically exhausted and didn't think I could go through another c-section and taking care of another newborn.
I didn't have any regrets or think too much about it until I had my second child. I kept thinking I should have three children now and what a mistake. I also was not religious and didn't really tell anyone except my sister who has no children herself. I've had postpartum depression since the birth of my third child in 2011 and never really understood why. Now that I have found God, I realize what a mistake I made. I had no excuse for doing what I did. That innocent child should be seven years old now. I pray for forgiveness and peace on a daily basis.