I had an abortion because I thought I would lose my job and not be able to take care of my two year old. I had horrific morning sickness all day.
During the abortion procedure, I felt like I was pushed along. I kept asking for someone to council me, but there was no one. I didn't have anyone with me inside to talk to.
I couldn't stop crying until the anesthesia kicked in. This was two months ago, I still cannot stop crying.
I found forgiveness through my Lord Jesus Christ...I know he still loves me. I am so sorry I killed his gift to me, my baby. A baby of love and joy. He immediately let me know that He still loves me. I am so not worthy. I killed my own baby, and He forgives me!!! I do not know if I will ever forgive myself. I think of the baby every day, all day :-(