I was unmarried, and went to my doctor, and he suggested an abortion since
this was an unplanned pregnancy. My boyfriend and 3 girlfriends were involved.
The abortion was cold, painless, and scary. I was not prepared emotionally or
psychologically for the procedure by my doctor.
This event occurred over 12 years ago and my husband and I still suffer from
guilt and remorse from what we so misguidingly did to our first child. I blocked
out all the emotions and guilt for so many years until I finally went to my
parish priest and confessed to him and Jesus my terrible sin. It wasn't until
then did I truly deal with my actions. I have now forgiven myself and tried to
right my wrong by supporting Pro-Life.
I have had to deal with the acceptance of the fact that I killed my first baby
and that we will never know that child's face. Hopefully, when I meet Jesus He
will show me my sweet baby's face. I've had to hide this terrible secret from my
family since I couldn't deal with their reactions. I still suffer today and
everyday from this tragic loss.