My conscience said abortion was wrong, but I convinced myself it wasn't a baby yet. When a sidewalk counselor stopped me, I refused to listen. She represented the Holy Spirit trying to stop me. Internally, I was shaking my fist at God, refusing to listen to HIM.
At my planned parenthood appointment, it seemed abortion was no big deal. I was told it was only tissue removal and did not consider any other options. Within a month after my abortion, I attempted suicide and was admitted to mesa vista rehab. I was ashamed of myself for many reasons and continued to cover it with drug use and alcohol.
Polly and Frank share their testimonies and how they found healing after abortion.
All those years of guilt and shame were nailed to the cross and I know I can speak openly about my past and be at peace with my past because of what Christ did for me. I still feel sad at times, but this is normal when a parent loses a child. And that’s exactly what abortion is. The loss of a child.
I don’t know how I did it, but I did. Again, I told no one with the exception of two friends. For the next 40 years, I pretty much buried it. I acted as though Nothing happened.
In 1996, I lost a baby girl to the horrific sentence of an abortion. My then girlfriend, and mother of my baby, was too concerned about her family’s reaction about getting pregnant out of wedlock.
That described the next 4-5 years of my life, that also led to three unexpected pregnancies. I never knew anyone else who had three abortions (or at least admitted that they did). I began to do everything I could to make up for those abortions by "doing good" and "being good" after I became a Jesus follower more than 25 years ago.
The Holy Spirit of God convicted me of my sin. I was finally admitting what I had done, not only to God, to myself. I had taken the lives of three of my unborn children, their souls were present at conception, and I was supposed to nurture them.
I had my abortion in 1992 during my sophomore year of college to avoid disappointing my family. My parents were Pro-Choice and it was legal so I thought it would be okay.
My testimony is less a story of what happened to me, and more a story of the many powerful life-changing encounters with Jesus that restored my dignity as a daughter of the most high God and allowed me to forgive myself and take responsibility for my abortion- no matter the circumstances.
And I chose to have an abortion when I was 22 because I was embarrassed to be pregnant. I had a 4 year old at the time and I felt shame because of the judgement from my family.
I had an abortion because I was going through a divorce from a physically abusive marriage, had recently started dating the father of the baby, and did not think I could manage everything going on at that time.