Before I married, I was living in Florida and I went to the beach and let the waves wash over me as I silently Baptized my two aborted babies. I gave them Feminine Christian names (that I now cannot remember). I felt that both babies were girls.
I had an abortion because the father of the child abandoned me and I was ashamed and afraid to tell my parents. It seemed an easy solution, legally available, and a quick fix. I could pretend that nothing ever happened, or so I thought.
Because of forgiveness, I am free to feel that grief and acknowledge the remorse of my "choice". This acknowledgement means I no longer have to deny or hide that remorse. It means I no longer have to deny or numb that grief.
I see now how selfish I was in 2008 when I had the procedure!! Other people's opinion of me being a single mother was more important than the blessed child God had given me! How dare I murder a life that was not mine to take.
I was filled with regret before, during and after the procedure. The Silent No More Campaign gave me hope of someday receiving complete forgiveness, and through the blood of JESUS, I have received God's supernatural forgiveness and miracles.
We don't have to have an abortion to be involved in healing the nation and ending abortion. May the next 50 years be a legacy of life and not a legacy of death and may we all live by truth and not by lies. Angelina's summary from the 2019 March for Life in Ottawa.
Going through healing helped me to become more honest, to stop justifying, to stop deluding myself and others, and to stop pretending and hiding. I intend to carry on my life with a loving, receptive, and open heart and to be silent no more. Sharon's testimony from the 2019 March for Life in Ottawa
In that stained trail that follows you, there is also a “leading.” it is a leading in either of two directions. It leads to your own death and destruction (and when I say death here, I’m talking about your soul and your conscience) or, it can lead to repentance in healing and freedom.
Nothing worked to erase the reality that I had been complicit in taking the life of my own baby. I am on a journey of healing which I imagine will continue my whole life. Testimony from Frances at the March for Life in Ottawa 2019.
It is my prayer that abortion will be abolished in North America through hearts and minds changed by exposing this most horrific injustice against humanity - and that is why I am silent no more. Melody's testimony from the 2019 March for Life in Ottawa.
I couldn't ignore my abortion anymore. There is a gap in our thinking. The value of a human in the womb is not determined by whether a mother wants the child. Thinking a child in the womb is not a human doesn’t change the facts. Annette's testimony from the 2019 March for Life in Ottawa.
I know that abortion is not the answer and had healing through confession and helping fatherless children. That is why I am silent no more: Scott's testimony from the 2019 March for Life in Ottawa.
"I still find myself mourning my unborn children at times...they were destroyed due to my ignorance and a violent form of birth control." Melody's testimony from the 2019 March for Life in Ottawa
"After the abortion, I felt a strange emptiness. Not only was my child gone, but that special part of me that made me want to be a wife, mother, and even a woman was damaged. I wanted to forget and started to drink more and do harder drugs to cope with my pain." Elaine's testimony from the 2019 March for Life in Ottawa
"Will the silence ever stop? Will the regret never end? Will I be punished for what I did?
Be alone in the end? Baby gone." Malinda's testimony from the 2019 March for Life in Ottawa
"My recovery from the abortions began with taking responsibility for the gravity of what I did. I received counselling, went on many retreats including Rachael’s Vineyard." David's Testimony from the 2019 March for Life in Ottawa
"I regret my abortion. I don't want you to suffer as I had. That is why I am silent no more!" Julia's testimony from the 2019 March for Life in Ottawa
"I would just go to counselors and different counseling groups to try to manage my new depression, but nothing really helped. I was a woman consumed by undealt with pain and resentment and unresolved grief."
"On December 1st, 2007, I aborted my daughter, Eva Rene, per the guidance of others who 'knew what was best for me.' I linger in pure hell daily because of this; it is heavy on my heart, more so than usual."
"So, I ended up having the abortion. Things did not get better. He ended up leaving me. The abortion affected so much of my life. The anger and hatred affected every aspect of my life."
"The sadness I experienced was from such a combination of events. Killing my own child I, rightly, couldn't shake. It's because my child was with me...a life...I couldn't cut off the life within me. I could kill him, but he would always remain with me."
"I no longer have those deep hidden feelings of guilt and shame...and now I AM SILENT NO MORE!"
"I will regret my abortion till the day I go to heaven and see Anthony, but God has given me peace in the midst of sorrow. What an honor it was when the Lord used me to lead a young gal, who was seeking an abortion, to Jesus. She changed her mind and had her son!"
"The feeling of worthlessness after each one increased. I turned to drugs and alcohol to cope with the feelings of being a murderer. Every anniversary I mourn the loss of my children who should have been."
"The truth was that I felt horrible afterwards. I couldn’t stop the regret and remorse, the pain that I felt. It is a pain that won’t go away. It feels like a lifetime of hurt, and I don’t want to have anyone go through that."