(A father's reflection…)
I wasn't strong enough to get up and walk out
My wife found herself pregnant at 20 years old and we decided we both weren't
"ready" to have a child.
We had it done in Oakland in 1975 at an old hospital converted to an abortion
clinic. We were there almost six hours waiting. I had a lot of "second" thoughts
during that wait. I knew deep down inside that what we were going to do was
wrong, but at the time wasn't strong enough to get up and walk out.
I feel a great loss for the child I could have had. That decision I made
about the abortion has definitely affected my present life. I have, by the grace
of God, dealt well with my feelings of guilt but the sorrow and loss of a child
will always be there.
The main thing I did was realize that my sin was forgiven by God and that one
day I will see the child I could have had on this Earth.
I realize that there is a baby in a pregnant mother and that the baby is
there as a gift of God. It might not seem like that when you are going through a
crisis pregnancy but years later that truth becomes apparent.