I was getting a divorce and had two children. I was led
to believe by the abortion chamber that if I did not abort the child I was
carrying I would lose the two I already had. The father of this child was
not the man I was divorcing. I did not care. A friend who had an abortion
said it was no BIG DEAL! She has been in a mental institution since a number
of times!
It was scary, sad, painful, demeaning, life threatening (high blood
pressure). Drugs, drinking, suicide, infection, no children, miscarriage! It was
a nightmare for me!
I tried to kill myself. I couldn't even look at a newborn for years. I still
have trouble with it today (10 years later). I cry for my child. I love her and
want her. I'm angry about the lies that were told to me. I'm angry with the
government that continues to promote and protect these lies.
[What do I do now?] Pray, Cry, Pray, Cry, Pray, Cry, Talk, Pray, Cry. I spent
years crying. Now I'm angry! I called the abortion chamber to help me but they
wanted nothing to do with me. Their records do not report that I had any
problems! 100 percent - BULL!!
For one thing, I've always wanted a big family. That's not possible. I think
I treasure the children I have more. It also wasted about 7 years of my life. 7
years before I could look myself or anyone in the face again. But for the grace
of God, I am alive and well! Abortion did not solve my problems, it only created
a 7 year long nightmare for me! It still isn't over. It never will be! NEVER! My
baby is dead and we killed her! I will never be the same, never be quite as
happy as I once was. My baby is always there in my mind and heart. I finally had
to tell my family - my mother cried, my daughter cried for two days and asked me
endless questions I could not answer!
There is an empty place at our table - a bed not slept in, someone missing on
holidays. My son encouraged me to talk to teens about abortion and I have done
that. However, it is easier to believe a lie than the truth and I wonder if it
even helps anyone.
I've answered surveys before. I've written letters to newspapers. I've
confronted the people who own the abortion chamber. There never seem to be any
results. The papers won't listen. When channels interviewed me they gave more
coverage to the chamber who said no one has ever had any problems at their
clinic! I went to that clinic and they (TV station) never even told them that,
that was where I had my abortion! I had problems--- BIG ONES! So the LIE LIVES
ON!
Thanks for listening. Try to get the truth out.
